I miss you

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HI :)		Profile: I'm Cynthia, 18 yr old, ex-greenwoodian; ex-riversidian; now a PIONEER in 10S02 TUMBLR / FACEBOOK / BLOGSHOP / TWITTER	November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 July 2011 September 2011 November 2011 December 2011 February 2012 March 2012 tenS02 RS alumni 4/4'09 4/5'09 4/6'09 4/7'09 2/8'07 SJAB sec 4'09 NA'08 NC'08 S28 LYL s28 photos City Harvest Pastor Kong Sun Ho Guitar4Christ Cassie Crystal Elaine Erin Germaine Guo Hao Guo Hao :D James Jasmine Jason Jelyn Jia Wei Joanne Joreen Kim Pan Liang Wei Lin Yi Lun Yolandor Yu Jia Zi Yang :) w519 Amelia Benny Clement Hui Zhen Jeff Ngoi Talleah Tyan Huey Xin Ying Winnie Sharon Vivien Atifah Cynthia Ong Atiqah Brenda Bryan Christopher Isabell Jorene Ling Yuan Sakinah Sze Ming Yan Juan Yee Le Jeremy Jia En Jie Lin Linda Li Ting Melissa Meroshini Patricia Pearly Sherilyn Sze Hui Waiean Weiting Wei Bing Ya Hui Zhi Xian 5A'04/6A'05 Adeva Alicia Lai Allison Chen Jing Filbert Hui Ern Izyan Liana Janice Liang Wei Zong Xian	one blue apple by lemon; floral background crane/pikachu icon city icon fireworks icon navigation anything you deem fit.

	Monday, December 26, 2011 Special occasions? I used to look forward to special occasions such as Christmas, New Year, my birthday etc. Now? Nah.. These days just make me feel exceptionally sad and lonely. Coz I know, the reality is that I'll forever be alone on these days and nothing I want will ever be fulfilled. I had you last year. But still, I didn't manage to celebrate Christmas and New year with you. :/ Now that I don't have you, I feel even worse. I worked today, from 6pm till night. But yet, I can't get you out of my head, even when working, amidst all the busi-ness, you're still in my head.. Sigh It's so sucky. Really, everywhere I go, I get reminded of you. It's like no matter how hard I tried, I can't forget you. I'm trying, to not pester you anymore. But I don't know if this is the right decision. I'm still really worried about you. But I guess there are other people who will be there to worry about you, aren't I right? So I shouldn't be so extra... Every where I go, I see sweet couples and I would think of how we used to be. I'd try not to look, but they are everywhere :( Sour grapes? :( Then, the situations I see, remind me of the situations we were in in the past too. I still remember, being so happy I can't sleep. And I do remember that there were times,too, that I was so upset I had to cry myself to sleep.. I really miss you.. But are you really fine? And will I ever.... get to spend time with you again? :( Now, it's like we only go out in groups, and I'd be so afraid to talk to you that I'd rather talk to other ppl. Yet, I would notice your every move, your every expression. Making sure you're okay.. Even if you're not, I can't do anything much too. I can only say "omg, are you okay?" in my mind, and give that worried look that nobody will ever notice, including you. Hah.. Only God knows.. Dear festive seasons, I really really dislike you :( I've been spending Valentines' alone, Christmas alone, New Year alone... Sigh.. I bet my birthday is gonna be like shit next year.. Dear me, why can't you not fall in love? Why can't you just love yourself? Why must you love him? Why are you so persistent? Why must you always need somebody to be there for you?.. Be patient girl, don't expect. You know the things you wish for won't happen, you're only hoping for the best, and hoping doesn't always mean that it'll happen. hugs self I have my toys to accompany me through thick and thin ma, yes? Oh wait, it's from him. :/ Should I maybe return him everything? But.. I don't bear to. Sigh. It'll make things worse ba.. I love you.. When can I tell you that again? When? :( I guess I should head to bed alrdy. It's like 5.30am -.- Oh, you're beautiful is damn nice can! But it reminds me so much of us. shakes head bangs head K, bye. LOL

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