I miss you

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HI :)		Profile: I'm Cynthia, 18 yr old, ex-greenwoodian; ex-riversidian; now a PIONEER in 10S02 TUMBLR / FACEBOOK / BLOGSHOP / TWITTER	November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 July 2011 September 2011 November 2011 December 2011 February 2012 tenS02 RS alumni 4/4'09 4/5'09 4/6'09 4/7'09 2/8'07 SJAB sec 4'09 NA'08 NC'08 S28 LYL s28 photos City Harvest Pastor Kong Sun Ho Guitar4Christ Cassie Crystal Elaine Erin Germaine Guo Hao Guo Hao :D James Jasmine Jason Jelyn Jia Wei Joanne Joreen Kim Pan Liang Wei Lin Yi Lun Yolandor Yu Jia Zi Yang :) w519 Amelia Benny Clement Hui Zhen Jeff Ngoi Talleah Tyan Huey Xin Ying Winnie Sharon Vivien Atifah Cynthia Ong Atiqah Brenda Bryan Christopher Isabell Jorene Ling Yuan Sakinah Sze Ming Yan Juan Yee Le Jeremy Jia En Jie Lin Linda Li Ting Melissa Meroshini Patricia Pearly Sherilyn Sze Hui Waiean Weiting Wei Bing Ya Hui Zhi Xian 5A'04/6A'05 Adeva Alicia Lai Allison Chen Jing Filbert Hui Ern Izyan Liana Janice Liang Wei Zong Xian	one blue apple by lemon; floral background crane/pikachu icon city icon fireworks icon navigation anything you deem fit.

	Saturday, December 24, 2011 :( It sucks when you're missing on facebook. When you get hurt during your trip to Japan and I know nth until somebody talked about it. And what's worse, I know you're hurt and I can't do anything to help you :( I can only ask if you're okay as a friend. Sigh, you tell her and everybody else, but me. why like that? Sometimes I wonder if liking you has became a habit, making it even harder to let you go. But how can it be a habit when I really still care? The "more-than-a-friend" kind of care. I really wish I was a bit braver than I am. I don't know why, but I'm getting more and more afraid, afraid to talk to you. Coz it seemed like you preferred to talk to everybody else but me. Maybe it's just me being crazily paranoid and over thinking again. Le sigh. I wish you could be here for me, and I could be there for you, like how we used to be. But you're like perfectly fine without me, yet I'm dying inside everyday. Le sigh again I had to pretend so much just now. Pretend I wasn't upset, pretend I wasn't jealous, pretend I wasn't worried, pretend I wasn't affected. I didn't like to hear you spending time alone with other girls, but you ain't mine anymore, so I have no right to get upset/jealous. I wish I could ask you how you were and take care of you. But I can't, coz we're over. :( I regretted my decision, my decision to agree with you. I just want to make things right again. I want you back... :'( Haish.. I just wanna stop feeling, stop loving, stop breathing. Coz every second I'm alive and breathing, you're all I think about. :( Funny thing is that I thought I could let you go like what you've said. But till today, I can't.. I'm really really a lousy person.

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